Hi Daddy,
well i'm writing this note because i'm not good with talking face to face so this way i'll be able to get everything out. I know that some of this will be new to you and maybe alot to handle but i'm not gonna beat around the bush so i'm just going to tell you everything, and know that i love you and i'm sorry if i have dissipointed you. ok, so you know i was sexually abused by mason but what you don't know is how it has been effecting my life. I started cutting about a year ago off and on. I just get really mad sometimes and it just seems to be away to get some of the pain out. What mason did to me has been controling my life and i want so badly but to be incontrol of my own life. I'm not sure if mom told you but i have also been suicidal. I feel like alot that i can't do this on my own and it's the truth dad. i need you and mom and right now but she doesn't seem to be wanting to help me so i need you more than ever now. I know that cutting and not eating and having suicidal thought's isn't going to make what happend to me go way and i know that it's not healthy for me and it wont help but right now i don't know what else to do to show you guy's that i'm huring and that i need your help. I guess i don't know where you stand with all this and i would really like to talk to you about it all because we never did. The abuse came out and then we hid it, we never talked about it and we never got help for it. I just feel crapy all the time and i don't want to i don't want to live in the past of masons mistake. i've lost so much of my child hood and i don't want to loose anymore of it. i want to have a good relationship with you but it just seems that we can never carry on a converstation and i want that to change i want to be able to just sit and talk with you about everything and anything but i think what happend to me to holding that back. but i just love you and i want you to be there for me and i just want everything to go back to the way it was. i hope somtime this week or the weekend that we will go somwhere and it just be us to and we can talk about this letter. i love you soo much!
kayla rose
well i'm writing this note because i'm not good with talking face to face so this way i'll be able to get everything out. I know that some of this will be new to you and maybe alot to handle but i'm not gonna beat around the bush so i'm just going to tell you everything, and know that i love you and i'm sorry if i have dissipointed you. ok, so you know i was sexually abused by mason but what you don't know is how it has been effecting my life. I started cutting about a year ago off and on. I just get really mad sometimes and it just seems to be away to get some of the pain out. What mason did to me has been controling my life and i want so badly but to be incontrol of my own life. I'm not sure if mom told you but i have also been suicidal. I feel like alot that i can't do this on my own and it's the truth dad. i need you and mom and right now but she doesn't seem to be wanting to help me so i need you more than ever now. I know that cutting and not eating and having suicidal thought's isn't going to make what happend to me go way and i know that it's not healthy for me and it wont help but right now i don't know what else to do to show you guy's that i'm huring and that i need your help. I guess i don't know where you stand with all this and i would really like to talk to you about it all because we never did. The abuse came out and then we hid it, we never talked about it and we never got help for it. I just feel crapy all the time and i don't want to i don't want to live in the past of masons mistake. i've lost so much of my child hood and i don't want to loose anymore of it. i want to have a good relationship with you but it just seems that we can never carry on a converstation and i want that to change i want to be able to just sit and talk with you about everything and anything but i think what happend to me to holding that back. but i just love you and i want you to be there for me and i just want everything to go back to the way it was. i hope somtime this week or the weekend that we will go somwhere and it just be us to and we can talk about this letter. i love you soo much!
kayla rose
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Thats an awesome letter. I think both letters are really good, and you should give it to your parents. And then if they dont help you, go to a school conselor or a close adult friend or teacher that you trust! You need someone, and u cant do this alone anymore. Advocate for yourself, so you dont waste years of your youth living in this pain. I am proud of you! And here most of every day. So feel free to write anytime. I will do anything I can to help you. Much Love Nichole
I am so proud of you. That took alot of courage and strength to stand up for yourself. You really should give the letters to your parents so they can realize how this has affected you. I think the letter is a great idea. It gives them something to really think about. You are such a brave girl. You have made me smile. I wish I had the courage and strength you do when I was your age. You should give yourself a great hug from me to you. How do you feel after writing those letters. Misschels right if they don\'t get you help then you should find another person you truly trust to help you. Do you think your parents are embarrased about what happened to you and that could be a reason they haven\'t helped you. They too must accept what has happened to you and maybe get some help for themselves. Maybe they live in shame and guilt. You make my heart feel so happy. I believe that you are a very very brave girl. Kudos to you. I hope by writing this letter you feel good about yourself. keep up the courage and strenght and braveness you deserve to heal. hugs & love shianne
That is a great letter!! I didn\'t realize you had written it. Sorry I was caught up in my other bull shit! I am so proud of you!
I believe that that was a great first step. Keep going and don\'t lose hope.
Believe me, it\'s going to suck, but giving up again will suck more.
I brought everything out 4 years ago and then locked it all up again. I\'m getting help now, finally. But it cost me a lot. I don\'t want the same for you.