AHH I JUST WANT TO CRY RIGHT NOW! I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY MY MOTHER WONT GET MY ANY HELP AND HOW SHE CAN JUST LET ME FEEL THIS WAY! I DON'T UNDERSTAND I DON'T UNDERSTAND I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE'S LOSING ME AND SHE DOESNT' EVEN CARE! ONE DAY I'M JUST GONNA BE GONE I'M JUST GONNA LEAVE HER AND I THINK SHE DOESN'T CARE. HOW COULD SHE NOT CARE. I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE HER BUT IF SHE WONT HELP ME I HAVE TO TRY AND HELP MY SELF AND I CAN'T RIGHT NOW CUZ I'M ONLY FUCKING 16 I'M TOO YOUNG TO GET A COUNSELOR WITH OUT A PARENT BEING PRESENT OR WHATEVER! WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME. WHAT DID I DO. WAS I NOT GOOD ENOUGH? IS SHE PUNISHING ME FOR TELLING WHAT MASON DID TO ME? IS IT BECAUSE I RUINED MY FAMILY? IDK AND I FEEL HORRIBLE ABOUT ALL OF THAT I KNOW I RUINED MY FAMILY I KNOW IT'S MY FAULT THAT WERE NOT CLOSE ANYMORE AND I'M SORRY FOR IT BUT WHY IS SHE PUNISHING ME. I DIDN'T TELL MASON TO HURT ME I DIDN'T WANT HIM TOO. SHE CARES MORE ABOUT HIM THAN ME AND HE'S THE ONE WHO HURT ME HE'S THE ONE WHO CAUSED MY FAMILY HELL. AND SHE LIKES HIM MORE JUST BECAUSE HE'S OVER IN IRAQ FUCKING FIGHTIGN FOR OUT COUNTRY! SO THAT MAKES HIS THIS HUGE FUCKING HERO AND MY MOM BELIEVS IT AND I'M PRETTY SURE SHE DOESN'T BELLIEVE WHAT HE DID TO ME! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE MY LIFE!
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It is not your fault your brother did that to you! He has a problem not you! Why would you lie to her about something like that? Do you honestly think she thinks you are lying? Write her a letter, a long one explaining how you feel. Start from the beginning like you never told her. You don\'t even have to give it to her if you don\'t want to. I would suggest it, but write it for you. Get all of your feelings out. Maybe post it on here if you want. Start from the beginning and spell it out word for word for her. If she doesn\'t get you help then I can help you find help. I don\'t think you need parents permission to see a counselor. You just need money and/or insurance. I will help you out in whatever way you need. Just take my advice. Write a letter. It can\'t hurt ;)
Karyl, PLEASE reach out to us for help!! We have been there and are older and can help you!!!! Don\'t shut yourself off, or take any blame. Please get to know us, as many as you can. We can all guide you! My biggest abuser was my older brother. It is hard for a mother to figure out how to handle this news at first because you are both her kids. It\'s not that she loves him more. She may be afraid he\'ll die in war and doesn\'t want to stir things up right now while he\'s there. Did u tell her recently? How long ago? Please open up to us so we can help you! LOVE NICHOLE