well today is going good! alot better than yesterday i wanted to die well i sort of tryed but i didnt' really want to die i just wanted to feel pain other than the pain i was feeling. but i am a lil bumbed that i didn't get to hang out with my friend something came up with her anut and her grandpa and so we don't get to talk today so that's the only thing that made this day a good instead of and excellent lol.but today is good we only had half a day of school and now i'm home and it is beautiful out so i'm gonna take my dog for a walk and shoot outside my house and relax. someone once told me that i need to take time for me and do what i want to do. so i'm gonna listen to her and do just that. thanks.