today is going good i guess but i just want to go back to bed and dream because my deams are better then real life. and in my dreams i can do whatever i want. but what i mostly want is to just be held. to just have someone wrap their arms around me and hold me till i fall asleep or i'm better i want to know that i have someone in my life that will do that and i want to feel a hug that has meaning in it that say's i am here for you and i love you. i don't get hugs very oftern and thoes are what i charish the most. my parents don't tell me they love me and i wish they would. i guess my life doesn't have alot of love in it and i wish it would. just so i know i'm not alone and my family and people are here and want to help.