well last night i had a panic attack kind of (i think i did). idk what happend i was fine going to bed and once i got up to my room and had get into bed my heart started to race and i keept feeling like someone would come into my room and hurt me. that mason would come into my room and hurt me. i didn't know what else to do so i grabed my razor blade and cut myself 5 times, there not bad cuz i havent done it in a while so it hurt at first to do it. but it calmed me down a lil but i was still scared.