Day Ten

Well it was not quite as bad today so I made it. It is hotter then hell here in Tucson right now so working outside is really brutal. Thats when I would really like a cold one but I NOT DO IT. Im starting to think I may need some outside help. Maybe AA and their 12 step system, just a thought. I think if I could get a good night sleep and stop thinking so much about the past maybe it would be a little eaiser.  The other thing I think of a lot is the idea of giving up all my old drinking buddies. (that is everyone I know)  My self adopted son will be the heardest thing I ever do. Breaks my heart to just think about it...... Well .... EVERYDAY IS A NEW DAY.........