I found an article in my newspaper about the need for volunteers with the Meals on Wheels program at a hospital nearby.  I want to do this alot, but not sure if my shyness and anxiety are going to get in my way again.  It always takes me so long to get the nerve up to make a phone call.  I always feel like I won't understand the directions completely and embarrass myself.  This has been very paralyzing for me and no one but my family understands me.  I would love to help people, but this always holds me back.  I wish I were'nt like this because I know I'm missing out on life and doing things that I so want to do.  I really feel trapped inside myself.