Well I did make it to the doctors’ office yesterday and my suspicions were confirmed. They did a urine test, found blood and infection in the urine and that my micro albumin was better. She ordered a cat scan and it showed 3 stones, 2 the size of the head of a match 3-4mm and one 12X8 mm (about the size of a large peanut). One is in the kidney, 1 in the uerter, and the large one just out of the kidney starting into the uerter. Ah, this may be the reason for the pain. The doc hasn’t got the results yet,( I repair CT scanners and radiology equipment so I sort of know what I’m looking at) but my guess is that I’ll be seeing an urologist next week. My former boss had a similar type stone and has to have it removed surgically. So I guess there’s still some anxiety, but I now know what the problem is and it can be fixed. On the second front, the house went on the market yesterday as well, so that anxiety is over. I need to stay focused, stay positive. The stbx seemed all happy and stuff while and just after the realtor was here, then the idea hit her that the house could be gone the next day. The tears started flowing, Well what did she think, that divorce was a picnic, something to jump into lightly, call it off when you got a whim. Again more of her emotional issues that she will not deal with. When she turns on the tears I can’t help but feel sorry for her. That’s about all I feel for her now. She has stifled all other feelings.The pain is letting up and I have to get ready for work in a couple hours I need to be there by 6:00 am to get into surgery for a repair before they start procedures) maybe I can get a little more sleep.I am finding that keeping a journal really helps as well.