What a day!
Can my life get anymore difficult lately? Don't answer that, because I'm sure it can but I've had enough and I don't want it to. My husband has actual diagnosed MS and is having problems lately but they can't really figure out why. We're not sure what this means for his career as a figure skater or our synthetic ice rink business. Three years ago I started a new job, after getting fired a few months before from my previous job because I was having my first round of possible MS symptoms. I was hired for a new position that was being started and have been in that position ever since. I started the program for the job I am in from the ground up. Today, I was told that they don't feel I can handle that job and I'm not doing it well enough. They basically told me that I have to give up that job, take a new one with inconsistent hours (in both time and quantity) or not have a job. I am the only one in the house with a job that pays the bills. I'm afraid that by switching to the other position I will loose time with my family and not be able to keep up with bills (not that I even can pay them now). This is just a slap in the face because in the span of one day I get told what a great job I do, but then I get told I'm not doing it well enough and I can't handle the autonomy. I've been having some strange symptoms again lately and I can't help but feel like I'm headed down the same road I was on a few years ago with my previous job. Also, I'm supposed to start an MBA program this fall and I was told that they don't think I can handle that and work. I'm not sure what to do at this point and I'm not sure how much more of this stuff I can handle. And yes, the things I have mentioned are only the tip of the iceberg. Tomorrow is my annual appointment with my primary care provider so I will see what she has to say about the message I sent last week regarding my various symptoms over the last few years. I'm not going to hold my breath that she is even going to acknowledge it but we will see. If she won't do anything then I think I might try to get an appointment with an MS specialist since my husband now has to go see one. If that doesn't produce anything than I am done pursuing this. I'm not going to continue pursuing answers that apparently there and a diagnosis that is clearly just "all in my head."