I just can't get on today i'm in such an emotion state crying and angry.Marc's son's down this weekend he hasn't been down for a few weeks and the weekend i need to do what i want when i want i have to put on a smiley face other wise that will be wrong not that it's my first fathers day without my Dad.I know it's Marc's day but i can't help the way  i feel at the moment.I don't mean to sound selfish.I don't know how i'm going to get through these next few days.