feeling better

Today Im feeling more alive,maybe its the goodnights sleepI had,which has been as elusive as a butterfly. But I think its more that I know what makes me feel good,and for once indulged in my love of art. I watched this tv program about design etc...and was inspired to follow through my passion for art deco,which has almost come from nowhere,but its given me the wings I needed. Not sure what Im going to do with this muse I have,but feel my creative side slowly emerging. I think,Ive given myself permission to be happy and not feel guilty for persuing something Im interested in,as Ive always had to rationalise why Im doing anything enjoyable,as if it was a sin to do something that wasn't more serious. It may well have come from my upbringing,but it sure doesn't have to stifle my future. All I can say,its been a heck of a long time coming.