Tired

I don't even care what happens to me anymore. I'm just so tired of everything. I am tired of the mood swings. I am tired of the medications. It'snot all about that either. I'm tired of not getting very much help around the house because everyone wants to sit on their butts.  I can't keep living like this. I'm tired of being so screwed up. I hate my life. The only thing that keeps me going is my granddaughter but today even her precious smiles and beautiful laugh can't pull me out of this mood. I just wanna crawl back into my bed and sleep the rest of the day.