Angry....

Why am I not angry????
My whole world turned upside down, lost the love of my life, the loss of my dog, having to sell my house, having to find a new place to live and essentially not the same person I was 11 weeks ago.
The day she left it broke my heart, in fact my heart is still broker and tears still fall. The one feeling I have not experienced is anger and I really don't understand why. If anything I figured that would be the first emotion I would feel.....