Another day.
Today was an okay day, I didn't get angry, or do a lot of yelling today. The girls have been trying to talk to me, and even fixed me dinner. My husband is being more considerate. He is even taking me to my doctor's appointment in the morning. I have been praying about my situation, and trying to be positive. I'm nervous about my appointment with my therapist, I used to be so comfortable with her. But at my last appointment I was full of rage and said some things that I should not have said. Although they were true. At the time had anyone crossed me that I had a problem with I was going to hurt them. I was so angry, that I wanted to take it out on someone, and she didn't like that at all. She even threatened to put me in the hospital. Now I am afraid to say what is really on my heart. She is kind of understanding, so if I explain it better we might get back on track. I will be letting her know that if it had not been for my support from friends on Daily Strength, I would still be manic. So glad I joined this group.
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I am so greattful that you are here in this group this family ......I am happy your husband is being more considerate .....he realy needs to get educated on ...what you go through ...is he going in to see the doctor with you ...because ..that would realy help ...I had to get my h in to my doctor ...he doesent have to stay through the hole apointment ....just ...so the doctor can tell him ..how he is helping and hoe he is not ....and to tell him what it is you go through .....when ever you feel comfortable with that ........that is good ..your praying and trying to be positive ....it is very important ..that is somthing I do also .....although at times it isent easey ...I don\'t stop fighting .....when you have all that anger in you come here and vent ...it on the DS bord ...or in your jurnal or in both ....when you put these things Dowen on paper ...and read them ..sometimes ..it will make a diferance and if others will talk to you ..about ..it that can help to ..and just getting it out ..is realy good for you ..because all that anger has to some ware ...you can\'t keep it inside ...and you can\'t lash out at those ..around you ....but out it must come ..in here .....and in here you are understood ..your anger is understood ....I hope it goes good with your therapist .....if you are afraid to realy say what is on your heart say it here ...first .....I hope you find the right words to explain what is in your heart to your therapist ......I keep you in my prayers ..take very good care of your self ...God bless