The anxiety is starting. I guess every year before school starts I feel this way. 5 minutes into the 1st period, however, it totally leaves. This year, though, I have probably triple the anxiety. I am quite concerned about being able to handle the internship and assignments which go with it and all of my students/classes as well. I know I said I wouldn't worry about it, but it sits in the back of my mind and creates a lot of anxiety. I think the worst part of the anxiety is rooted in the fact that if I can't do both the internship and full time job then I will have to really admit that this disease has more control than I thought. Control is a big deal to me--I don't like to lose it and I certainly don't want to lose it to a disease.      Acceptance. I need to pray for acceptance and serenity. I need to accept what I am able to acomplish and learn to live with what I can't. Easier said than done. Tomorrow is a new day! Thank-you, dear Lord, for all that you have given me!