Nothing drives me. I keep slogging on in my not completely uncomfortable life because its expected of me. Depressing, huh?A long time ago, in a galaxy far far away, I thought I might do something great with all that energy. he doctors told me the energy was hypomania and it was the only bright spot in my life. The cure for my other ills took it away from me.I have to take the meds because I can't produce the income expected of me if I don't.I have to take the meds because others are unhappy being around me if I don't.I have to take the meds because I might hurt someone (or me) if I don't.I'm ok with that, but I still miss having energy and creativity and boldness. I guess I'm still working through a crisis about this. Maybe its the grief phase of change. Maybe I just feel sorry for myself.
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I think that you are \"working through\" a situation that could have ruined your life. But you have chosen not to let that happen with the grace of God on your side. Any loss can generate the cycles of grief. It is all right to feel sorry for yourself, just don\'t camp there for days. Have a good weekend.
I agree with Grace...God is always with us my dear friend and He always hears our prayers.Please take care and stay safe! Love and Hugs,Maria
If meds keep life in check for you then its okay my friend.Every once in a while we just need a change of pace and a time to reflect.Life is choice and what we do to make others happy is also choice.Remember to communicate and never stop talking about the importance of how you feel to those who are overly taxing.You fit in the box there somewhere take your space gracefuly.
Good blessings!
Rachel
You are right. I need my meds so I don\'t have tremors and my movement disorder from PTSD. I need my meds so I don\'t hurt someone else or me. I need my meds to work. Most we need God to help us sort this life out. It\'s ok to feel sorry for ones self sometimes. This life is hard! Lord give you courage and strength and confidence I ask in Jesus name, Amen