I used to love the highs. The incredible ability to accomplish so much, be so creative and so fun. I'll never miss the lows, the danger to others, sometimes to myself and the deepest well of misery.I accept that a pill will help me become more level and that it is not taking my creativity away. Life is like the tortoise and hare story. What good is it to race ahead only to fall so abjectly behind?Now I have to learn to just keep pugging away at it, it will be as nice as any other project, just take a bit longer. No more cramming and getting it done just under deadline.Maybe I won't scare off so many potential friends. Maybe I won't be sitting in a pool of my own blood and feces wondering how I got there.