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I wish something would help me with my bipolar. I dont think the meds that are new are working . Husband says hospital wont help me. The ddoctors isnt helping me. I need help. I feel i cant like anything, or want anything from what my husband said. I feel so much like a failure at my life. Yes, my children are grown. I never ever hurt them, i hurt myself agian, right in front of my husband. He just turned an walked away. He says he loves me but how, idont believe him, or understand anything he says. He makes no sence to me. I need help but how? Crisis line was closed. I tried calling a few people, bu t only upset a lady we will call, lady D. So sorry. I am a mess. I dont even want to get changed for bed or sleep with husband now. Its so cold right now. Burr. Well, if u are upset with me, and dont want to read my journal any more, i understand. Why would anyone want to be friends with me!
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You are not a failure. I think the hospital could really help you get your meds straightened out. Your psychiatrist should be helping you sweetheart. Some times it takes a while for the meds to get in your system to start working but if they are already making you worse. You need to contact your med doctor and notify him so you can get a med change.
I told my husband, when yout married you have to talk about these things with your husband. He say i need to stay home. He wont let me go in . Can I take myself in? I cut myself agian right in front of him. He just walked right by. Idk. I cant make decisions. Can i take myself in?
Sorry you are having such a hard time. I\'ve prayed for you and prayed you will find the strength to get the help you need. God is there for you. Your Dr. is there for you. Use him/her.
I don\'t understand how your husband can see you cutting yourself and just walk out. That makes no sense to me. You and your husband do need to talk about things. Why won\'t he talk to you? Yes you can admit yourself to the hospital. I am pretty sure. I hope that you find the peace and the healing that you need. I know you have a long journey ahead of you. You have had a rough past. All the pain and trauma can\'t be erased over night because it took years to build up. You know I am always here if you need to talk Angie.
Call your Dr. if you feel you are getting worse. It can take time for meds to work though. Yes, you can admit yourself to a hospital. I don\'t understand your husband just walked away when you hurt yourself. I hope you do get some help asap with hurting yourself. I hope you can find some peace.
I think you should go to the hospital if you need a med change. I just worry that when you get out of the hospital that things at home will be the same and you will just go back in. Make sure that when you get out that some things have changed. I can\'t imagine cutting in front of Geo. He always said if I cut again he would cut himself. That scared me into not cutting until I got over the need for it. *hugs* I\'m here for you, you know that.
Have you tried Lamictal?
Lamiictal and another med i was on2 years ago. The doc i was seeing at the time said it didnt work on me, that i needed something stronger.
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I am with everyone else, you should be in the hospital. It\'s a shame you can\'t talk to your hubby, that\'s not cool. My heart is heavy thinking of you hurting yourself, especially in front of him and he did nothing? Wish i could do or say something to help you. You do not deserve that kind of treatment. I am so sorry this is happening to you my friend. xoxo
Angie, I cannot believe your husband walking away from you. You don\'t deserve that. He should be understanding and compassionate with you and it should be both of your decisions to enter the hospital. Also call your doctor and see what he or she says about switching to another medication. Remember, you can call or message me and I can talk to you. I will message you my cell phone number so that if you feel like talking to someone I am available.