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I can be a pest. Why am i so needy? Why do i feel like a bother, why do i want so much love. I would like to know what it feels like to feel good, happy, but it gets up an down. Bipolar, hate it. Why did god make me like this. Angels in heaven help me. Up an down. I like the ups not the downs. I was hooked on morphine an vicodin. How come i liked it. I dont like that feeling now. I like the feeling of being over high, like speedy. Addictive personality. Is there a group here with that name? That is me mixed, messed up!
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Hi my dear friend and I know what you\'re going through my sister is bipolar and she\'s either up and happy her down and sad ,there may be a bipolar support group that you could join I haven\'t really looked into it here but I am imagine there is one nice to talk to people that really know how you feel and you can share with them it\'s one of the hardest , to deal with I know my sister has a really hard time she tried to commit suicide and almost didn\'t make it now than she was in a coma and now she\'s out with amnesia so I\'ve dealt with my sisters bipolar for 20 years she\'s on a lot of meds and You are too ,you have to be to keep yourself on an even keel , and when you\'re like that you want to be loved everybody wants to be loved and I want you to know I do love you and I understand you and I\'m here for you if you just want to vent or talk or whatever you need putting you and one of my special prayers that God will send out an angel to walk beside you and help you and be there for you that you feel that love . Hoping you have a better new year I love you bunches your friend Shirley
*hugs* I know how it feels to have your life going out of control. I hope that you can get help from your husband... look up the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance and see if they have a group in your area. It\'s a bunch of people who all have mental issues and it\'s great support. The one down here has a special meeting for family so that they can listen to others talk about their experiences. Geo refuses to go, but if you can get your hubby to go it might help him understand you more and know you are not alone. *hugs*
HEY ANGIE SO SORRY TO SEE YOU FEELING LIKE THIS, REMEMBER YOU ARE LOVED, SO BE STRONG YOU WILL GET OVER THIS, JUST PRAY , READ THE \'SCRIPTURES\' SIT DOWN AND LISTEN TO \'GOD\' HE CARES FOR YOU, I PRAY THE LORD EMBRACE YOU AND GIVE YOU PEACE IN YOUR HEART AND MIND, LOVE IN \'JESUS CHRIST\'\', LUCY**