sadness
I now that when I cry, like I have been doing today releases endorphins, then I feel better for about a half hour but sadness comes back. My sons are going to take me to the art museum tomorrow. I hope my anxiety is ok. There will be 6 of us going.. they all know i have bp.bipolar ruins my life, I do like the high hyper moments. But all the other stuff, ugh, I want the pain to stop. Sometimes I want to take painkillers agian, but that was a nightmare getting off them. I only have about 5 vicodin left from my extrations. I am saving them when I am in real pain. I have been noticing my legs tingling at night. I dont want my restless legs to come back! I just cant stand this emotional pain from my past. Guilt is so bad! It happens even when I buy myself a cup of coffee. Ugh! Pleas stop this pain in me!
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Talk to your therapist Angie. Get all of this stuff off your chest..
And Restless Leg - buy some Tonic Water - it has quinine in it. Works great.
You don\'t have to drink it everyday, but in the beginning I drank a small glass every day for a couple of weeks.
Tonic water is great. Crying is good if you can use it to make you feel better. I also go for a walk when I\'m dowm and even 10 minutes is good. I just walk and sort out my mind. *hugs*
I wish I could walk, but its that i have a problem. Neighbors. They like to judge me. I can only drive, then like go to the store. I also get anxiety walking alone. I get so scared when I walk alone. I have no friends . I wanted s dog, but my husband says no. I could walk with a dog, but... my husband is totally against it. . I cant do much, but go grocery shopping an to my moms alone. Its difficult situation. My husband influence me. I have to do what he says.