sad

We were supposed to go to church but,   it didn't work that way.  I have to go to my  parents house.  I always get anxiety when I have to go there.  My dad being so  ill but he still has a garden.  My mom being  ill but still runs around,  going out to eat an buying stuff.  She is a hoarder. And I don't want to be that way. I could be,  that is what scares me.  My husband keeps me  in check.  Sometimes,  I leave my debit card at home.  That helps.  I have to fight being like that.