Goal update
Today is 65 days sober. Don't get me wrong, I am happy about that but it is a bad day. A very bad day. I have had less than 5 hours sleep and I woke up. Just woke up for no reason. That always makes me angry and starts my day off wrong. I had a rough night last night. I was very manic according to my sponsor but I finally got my brain to shut down enough where I could get at least a little sleep. Things around here are pretty rough financially and it really sucks. Not even sure how i am going to be able to buy my meds in a few days or pay for the visit to the psychiatrist. I know I need them but I guess if I don't have it I won't be able to get them. I guess today is the crash that my sponsor has been warning me about. It is a super down day. My mind is still racing but I don't really care about anything. I just want to go under my covers and stay there all day. I can so I think I will.
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