Dear god..
If I must continue this path of infertility then you have to give me the strength to keep going. I have done all I can do at this point and have to place it in your hands. i have to do this not daily but every moment of my day sometimes. I am grateful for the days that I can truly enjoy my day but need your help when I just don't understand. It's been 9 long years. I have watch people come and go into the mommy club And here I am alone. The hardest part is coming home to a empty house and instantly having a flood of emotions. i have to fight them because if I allow it to come it ruins my whole evening. To read about all my deserving moms here and their struggles hurts me so much considering the people that seem to have no problem GettIng pregnant. My frustration is what the heck do I do next?
On a positive note, I am grateful for the many blessings I have had. Things i would not have thought I would doing. My weight loss, my job, my husband , my health, and my family.
On a positive note, I am grateful for the many blessings I have had. Things i would not have thought I would doing. My weight loss, my job, my husband , my health, and my family.
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I love your faith. You are truly an inspiration. What do you do next... you keep on living your life. You keep trying to get pregnant. You simply keep on.
You are an inspiration in everything you do. It seems like pregnancy and childbirth comes easily for so many... So easy, that many people take it for granted. I\'m sure it will happen. In God\'s time.
xoxo
Nneka
Thank you for sharing your letter to god. I could have written that myself. I relate 100%. Gods plan is better than mine. I keep telling myself that. Hang in there. xoxo
Your faith is inspiring. I am at a place where i HAVE TO BELIEVE in miracles! Surely My baby Elijah who i have dreamed about, cried for, fasted and prayed for will be one of God\'s GREATEST MIRACLES IN MY LIFE!!!! I too pray for strength to get thru the rough days! for the most part i\'ve learned to be content..... but some days are too much.... Praying you get that JOY back......
BIG HUGS!!!!!
It\'s so hard at times to keep the faith when suffering from infertility, but it\'s great to see you still have a relationship with God. Good luck with whatever you decide to do next. You and all the women on here deserve to get their miracle.
Keep holding on to your dream. I know how horrible it is to suppress your feelings just to make it through the day. It took me and my DH 10 years to conceive, but it finally, miraculously happened. I know your struggles, experiences and pain have been different than my struggles, but I can relate to your feelings of being left behind. We filled our lives to overflowing with community and volunteer work just to keep ourselves satisfied with something, and to try to fill the void. I know you are a teacher and are around children all day--I am am pediatric PT and also lived every day wondering why I couldn\'t have just one precious child of my own while the families I worked with sometimes begrudged that they were expecting yet another child. It is SO hard, I know. Keep your faith and know that God is with you always, and hears your prayers. We just don\'t get to control the how and when.