UGH...
Today I am quite emotional. I went to the gym which is the local YMCA and there were so many families, mothers, children, I feel so horrible! I know I should be happy that I am taking my BCPS and such and hopefully I will be pregnant in a few weeks but I dread starting work on Monday with the school being full of pregnant women. I was suppose to go back pregnant!!! I feel so sick to my stomach! I am filled with anger, hurt, resentment, fear, and hurt. I am scared this cycle might get canceled or just doesn't work. It seems to be the track record for me!! I am completely down in the dumps today and trying to dig my way out. I refuse to talk to anyone because they don't get it, so why cry to them??...I am soooo tired of this journey. It has been 5 long years and I am tired...
Replies
I am so sorry that you are having a rough day. It is hard to see all the mom\'s and pregnant women. I had a pregnant women sit next to me on the train yesterday. UGH! That was a rough train ride. But you have to think positive - it will happen and your day will come when you have great news to share.
Hugs and sticky baby dust to you!
I work a couple cubicles away from a pregnant woman. At first when I noticed her belly whenever I saw her coming I would turn around and go the other way... I think we\'ve all had those \"here comes another one\" moments. We will all have our time too!
I know what you mean!!!! There is a great website out there called \"www.999reasonstolaugh.com\" that makes quite funny comments about the things that bother us infertile women.....check it out! It may be the comic relief you need right now to remind you that you are not the only one jealous of the pregnant dog in the neighborhood!!!!! LOL
I am so sorry that this summer did not work out. I know what you mean about facing co-workers who are pregnant when you have tried so hard. I know what you are going through, but remember you are not alone in this struggle. I am sending you lots of prayers and baby bust.