SCARED....

Well I start my BCP, baby aspirin and Metformin when AF arrives. I am so apprehensive this time. I am so tired of being disappointed with my cycles being cancelled. This was the worst weekend in a long time. I am just beginning to see the sky. I don't know if I can do it again. I have anxiety and panic thinking about doing it again. Yet, I feel panic thinking of not doing it again! Starting another cycle kinda keeps me feeling like there is hope.  I just dont know anymore