Things have been going pretty good around here, We are getting along great, I wish I would stop cringing everytime his cell rings or he doesen't answer his cell, I have to have a tooth pulled tomorrow  and I start my new job on Thursday so Im on Vicodin so if things start to get a little strange with my writing that's why, im tired of writing down phone numbers and calling them, and checking his cell, and so on and so forth ,when did I become this person,? I don't like being this person ,its affecting my health I think, im so run down and agitated, I can't eat hat much my stomach rolls I ve lost about 14 lbs, wich is good I needed to lose some weight ,I went up to the ER last night since trying to get into a dentist around here is impossible and I was pretty loopy from the Painkillers, my husband came up there, I know he is trying , but I don't think our spouses realize what they have done to us ., Ifeel like he feels, ok I made a mistake, moving on. I Know waht I want , and I want you I love you, I want my family, so everthing is happy now ,I don't know why your so upset or miserable isnt this what you want to ?