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It seems like everything gets worse while I'm at school. It gets to the point where I have brought a razor with me and cut in the bathroom. The urges are getting worse and more frequent. I want help but I'm to afraid to ask for it because if I do I will just get thrown in another hospital. I don't want that. I want people to actually care instead of just being shoved in different places and forgotten about. Someone please help me!
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I\'m here for you if you ever want to talk. I\'m pretty much in the same exact boat right now so I know what you\'re going through.
I understand I used to be the same way. I would take blades everywhere and would cut when ever. If you want to stop, get help. See if you can see a social worker, ask a doctor if you cant find one. I understand how you feel about the hospital I too didnt want to go back there and was scared of asking for help when I wanted to stop. But if you talk it out with the right people that know a little more about cutting they can help you with coping and give you some different ways of dealing with everything.
However you will find many caring people on this support group that understand and are either going through or have been through and get it.
I do ask like I do anyone that I hear is self harming. Please if you are going to self harm, do it in a safe way. Make sure what you are using is clean, make sure you take care of the wounds, everyone has slip ups when they are trying to give up the addictive behavior. Dont take it as a set back take it as ok bad day but tomorrow different. Promise yourself you will wait just a little longer before you harm. Try something you like then if you still need to cut then try talking to someone that is safe and understands, still need to, then do it safely. You will get through this, if you really want to. I was once in the same place and with school and all the fake friends oh honey I 100 percent get it! On here you will have people that understand and care about you and will help you through this!
I hope to hear from you.Stay strong and you will get through this! It does get better. As much as that seems like a lie its not, but it takes time and a lot of work its not easy. Its not like one day it will be all better, you need to take the steps to make your life better for you and only you!