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OK I thought I was going to have a good day yesterday, and it was good until last night. I don't know what went over me but I already ate dinner and my fathr in law was forcing me to eat dinner with him. He made a mushroom shrimp thing that was sauteed in butter. BUTTER! and most things you sautee is lightly coated with it, this stuff...there was more butter than actual food. It looked like soup, except the "broth" was pure butter!! I ate a little bit...sneaking napkins to blot off all that fat. I was still full from dinner and I did not want to eat this. So what do I do? I decide to purge. Of course though, it isn't the proper purge w/o the proper binge. So I went to the store and bought donuts and a brownie. I did not want to b/p last night. And it sucks when your father-in-law  is a freaking binger himself and eats so much and expects me to do the same. I CANNOT BP today! My troat hurts and I am just not in the mood. I hope it stays that way. ON a positive note, I am going to see a nutritionist today. I kind of don't want to because then I have to kiss this ED good bye. Am I ready?