51 Days Smoke - free

Just trying to make it through these rough days on this med until I start my outpatient group. Went to 2 .. AA meetings, took a walk, everything feels like a chore.. its exhausting... talked on the phone, went to Costco ..my son just escapes all day and night to video games
Its so hard to not escape and smoke cigerettes... I just had such a tough ride at the end with my breathing and ashma. Coughing was a problem too. I would hate to die from smoking but when I am depressed like now I don't even care. Trying hard not to give in to smoking.
I just can't wait to get stablized. Life sucks when your in a low mood.