Work

I am so tired that I am beyond sleeping.  On Friday I worked a double shift and tomorrow morning I have an early start. I suppose I can say that I then have two days off.  Sometimes I just want to take a long holiday, but that ain't happening soon.  In a month I have three weeks off work, for two of those I am going to do a CBT course. So how much of a holiday will I get.  At the moment I am trying to get through each day at work to get to the holidays.  I have self harmed again and have an infection which eaves me feeling horrible, especially during a 14hr shift.  That and tiredness leaves me feeling crap!!!!!  It doesn't help the mood either.