today

Today I fell back into my life at home. Much better. I got a lot of work calls. In one day from what am I going to do for work to how can I do it all. Well I know I will not get it all but Its all good. Had a guy I sponsor come over tonight to do a 5th step with me. It is something we do in 12 step programs. Well I remember why we do them now and I am very greatful for 12 step programs.They have been part of my life for 24 years so that is most of my life so could not imagine life any other way.Brian, my boyfriend is off work tomorrow night looking forwardto that. It is going well, he seems to be more willing to talk when stuff comes up this time. I guess that is the difference between 27 years old and 30 years. We will see. :}       Okay my Mom called tonight and everytime she calls me I think something has happened. I can count on one hand, okay maybe two how many calls I have received from a family member my whole adult life. I thought sh...t what has happened. Nothing just a for thre hell of it call. One of my younger brothers is an addict and I alwaays expected arrested again or dead or he has killed someone. Thank God not this time.I got cleaned up , there is always hope for him.I realize this was just a bunch of babble and free floating thought, sorry, its worst from where I stand. :)