So I have been meeting guys to date from an online ad. I have never done this before but it seems like I may get a couple real dates  from it. Seems like gays just want to hook up and I am not into that.All I have ever wanted is relationship and family(kids). Anyway maybe it will happen huh.  Also I chatted w/guy on this site tonight and it made me wonder if there is a corrulation between my cutting and burning myself when I was young and my work out and food issues as an adult. I am not saying that I have an eating disorder but I was obsessive about working out , getting big, and what I put in my body. Now doing okay with it but still think about getting rid of food after I eat, sometimes. Anyway thats all for now. Eric