Good day so far. I do not really want to work today but do not want to skip either.I have let my world get very small and that really concerns me. It feels like less accountability and stress but I also start thinking I could fall off the face of the earth and would not be noticed.I have been very social really for my whole adult life.So at the beginning of the day I need to consciously choose an attitude and go with it . Left to my own devices I would go through the day with a negative outlook and not even be conscious of it.Since I am a recovering alcoholic I need to live  a certain way and be more conscious than most, because the consequences are greater than most.I am also struggling with a new addiction that has nothing to do with drugs or alcohol.Because I am in recovery I feel alot of shame for getting into a new addiction.Also fear of this new addiction.Thats enough for now.