Thoughts

How am I feeling today?  
Lots of thoughts going on in my head...  Many of which regard things I cannot control...
Feeling brighter in my spirit, but it seems I just cannot sleep enough...
I have a meeting with the Poetry Society today, but I cannot remember if it is at 1:00 or 2:00... 
Goodness...  Some have said it is my age...  I honestly believe it is the years of psychotropic medications I have taken mixed with my brain breaking into a thousand pieces @ 10 years ago...
I am not the same person I was... Sometimes that saddens and frustrates me tremendously...  When I look at her, she is an entity which exists within me...
I feel as if I lost so very much, but have gained in other areas which I would have never addressed had I been on the path I am today...
Do I like myself better today than when I was that person, so many years ago?
I cannot say I can completely embrace her, but I can acknowledge her accomplishments despite her ordeals...
Sometimes it is hard to see the good I have done and not focus on the missteps...
Things I cannot control...
Be still my troubled mind...

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annettearizona
annettearizona

They say we learn from our mistakes...sometimes :)
Be proud of the fact that you like the person you\'re today than the one before!
And DO NOT feel bad about getting confused or forgetting things-it doesn\'t come with age nor with meds...it comes with having a lot on our minds and that is what note paper is for :)
Lilaolivia
Lilaolivia

Note paper is a grand idea... Thank you so much!