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I'm feeling pretty numb right now...  
Not really wanting to do very much, even around my home...  I am on an antibiotic which makes me rather drowsy, so I've been spending a lot of time sleeping...  
It feels like an old escape pattern...  Sleeping...  I don't know which is the more difficult, feeling drowsy or feeling as if I am sleeping my life away...
Today is day 4 of the antibiotics...  I have six more days to go...  Of course, when my symptoms decrease, I will think I am all better and not want to take them anymore...  
I've been encouraged by several people to go to a place I used to go to be around people...  I can find every excuse to not go, but I believe I will go eventually...  On my time...
Just feeling kind of nothing today... 
 
 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

sorry to hear your feeling so down,maybe when you finish those anti-biotics you will feel better and go to the place you mention.i hope tomorrow is brighter for you,hugs xx
Lapsmom10
Lapsmom10

Sorry about that Lila! Just place your focus on getting better in the now. If it is the medication that is making you drowsy, then I wouldnt look at it as an old habit. Take this time to just get better. And you are always so active in your home, take a break!!!

Feel better!
deleted_user
deleted_user

Antibiotics can kick your butt....especially the \"overkill\" variety. You must take them to the end, even if you are in the bathroom a lot by then (you know what I mean) or you risk this thing developing resistance and then need to go to an infectious disease specialist for IV antibiotics every day. It\'s normal to be tired when you\'re sick. It\'s normal to feel \"numb\" because your mind is battling so much at once. Don\'t worry about it.

Some people mean well when they give advice. Your two prior answers give you the real and true response: do what you can, when you can; don\'t judge yourself, no one knows what\'s in your head and heart; get better physically, first. Then, one day at a time.
annettearizona
annettearizona

I think that is a BAD idea to go to a place where you use to go...you have been doing good starting a new,and I think you need to find NEW places to meet and be around people!
You may be super drowsy-but you may need to force yourself to go sit outside -write some poetry-search online for something which interests you...in other words-stay up :)