Overwhelmed
I am so overwhelmed I can't think of anything right now...
I am destroyed financially due to my inability to work and past debts...
I am being put in a position wherein I have to work, but can hardly leave my home...
I am terrified... I cannot even go to the Dr's office as I cannot pay the previous bills...
My mother is consistently harassing me regarding my finances and behavior... Consistently bring up my past...
I don't trust my friends anymore as I have learned they have shared personal information about me...
I long for male companionship, but have prostituted myself for company...
I have called the credit companies asking for grace regarding my bills...
It is Saturday, and I can do nothing more...
I can hardly think straight...
God, I am so grateful I found this way to journal...
It is helping me so much...
I am destroyed financially due to my inability to work and past debts...
I am being put in a position wherein I have to work, but can hardly leave my home...
I am terrified... I cannot even go to the Dr's office as I cannot pay the previous bills...
My mother is consistently harassing me regarding my finances and behavior... Consistently bring up my past...
I don't trust my friends anymore as I have learned they have shared personal information about me...
I long for male companionship, but have prostituted myself for company...
I have called the credit companies asking for grace regarding my bills...
It is Saturday, and I can do nothing more...
I can hardly think straight...
God, I am so grateful I found this way to journal...
It is helping me so much...
Replies
As you said, it is saturday and there is only so much you can do.But there is only so much one person can do as well.You can only deal with one issue at a time. Bringing up your past is not going to help with your present situation! You did right contacting your credit companies. So perhaps going to one of those job places that help you find work even for a day can be a start?
Yes, you are right... I am trying to refrain from working in my previous carreer field due to the intense violence... I applied for a job cleaning toilets... Very peaceful... I also threw out my resumee twice this weekend so far... I am working towards it little by little... I just hope the credit agencies are willing to work with me... Thank you so very much for your friendship and support... All my heart, Lila
Lila you seem so insightful. I\'m going through some of the same crap. It IS all so overwhelming. Some days I don\'t know what to do and until I found this site, I was too ashamed to talk to anyone about it. I just wanted to offer my support and I love your journals. You may not care for me too much though if you are in to astrological signs. Guess what I am??? SCORPIO. LOL!!!!!!!
I cannot begin to tell you how much it has helped me in the few days I have been a member... I do not feel so alone... I journal because it gets all of those thoughts out of my head... I get really tired of my brain sometimes... You are always welcome to read my journals... That is why I left them public... Maybe someone out there, like you, might be able to relate and open up... I am into Astrological signs... Funny thing is, with Scorpios, we either love each other or hate each other... I think you and I are going to be just fine...