Update

Been having a hard time lately with the texas thing. Mitch officially decided a few weeks ago that he is moving to texas. I thought that I'd be prepared to hear that but I definitely wasnt. He hasn't left yet which is nice but at the same time its bad for my emotional status because I'm constantly a roller coaster of emotions. Every week going back to school I feel really crappy and shitty and start to feel better at the end of the week, emotionally distancing myself from Mitch enough to feel comfortable with the distance and idea of texas but then I come back for the weekend to see him and I get all excited and emotionally more attached. And I get so happy to see him and once I go back to school i get all depressed again and realize the situation of things. I can't stand the idea of not being around him and having him move to texas. there is just so much against us that could go wrong that it kills me inside. I don't know what to do to make it better because I know if he was in texas id at least be able to get used to it and get over the fact that i won't see him for a while but because I know he's leaving but I can see him every weekend so my heart believes that he's staying even though my brain knows he's leaving. 
I am glad though he will be here in Colorado for our two year anniversary.