Update

Okay. I haven't been here for a while so I figured I needed to update. I am doing much better now in dealing with the divorce. I think my ex has lost his new gf, because he has been home a little more and sad when I talk to him. He went out of town for a couple of days for military drilll and to visit his family. He told me I could stay at the house if I wanted. That seems a little creepy since he has had his gf there. There is still a picture of us on our wedding day on top of the refrigerator, but I noticed that he turned it to the side. I guess it made her feel uncomfortable, but he is not yet ready to just take it down altogether. I guess that helps me to feel a little better. I think about how much I miss him, but I think that I want children more than I want him back. Maybe this is a sign that I am coming to terms with loving him but knowing he is not the right person at this point in my life.