5 years

I have not been on here in a very long time. Decided that now, with time O'plenty, spring break, I would do a brief update. I recieved my 5 year chip a couple of weeks back. Hard to imagine my life before I got and stayed sober. My ex is still bitter, however, I get along with her new husband so we work things out without her. My kids are growing up fast. My oldest graduates from HS next year. I am still single, no GF, no prospects. Got a puppy a few months back. Dont know if that was the best idea I have had. I finally moved into a much larger town house. I have plenty of room now for aquariums. I have built one system. I am currently building a much larger system. Sounds like I have cash, but truely, I am still pretty broke after child support is paid. I am still teaching highschool. I have 11 more years to go to retire. I am already making plans. Most retirees have troulbe living on a reduced income. I have been practicing that, not by choice, for 5 years now. Not debt free, but manageable. I am taking more things on faith now a days. Been getting closer to Gods word. Spending most of my drinving hours listening to sermons from a wide spectrum of Christian theologians. Thats it for now. I am not happy, but I am not sad either. Just am. Some might call it boring, I call it stable.

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coffeevixen
coffeevixen

Sometimes just being is steady. Not bad. Not good. Boring is even better sometimes. Chaos, drama and restlessness are terrible combined. I\'m 5 1/2 years sober and I still think on my life before I got sober. I have journaled all along the way. I go back and visit the past. I just don\'t stay there. Stable is good. Sane is good. I hope that in time when things heal and life is better (and it will be) you can look back too and think how far you\'ve come. You are making plans for the future. All fine and well. Just remember to live each day and enjoy the little things in it. Even when it\'s dark outside there is always a little bit of light. Hugs....