5 wks 2 days
Its refreshing to hear from someone that knows what I'm going through. It's been 5wks n 2 days. I think the hardest part is realizing that life is going to keep going on evan though he is not here. The cemetary where jason is laying isnt far from my house but they close at 8pm. Sometimes I just want to go lay up there with him. I'm 37 years old and I hurt myself breaking into the cemetary the other night because I get so lonely. He use to tell me atleast your not the one dieing. And I said no honey I'm not the one dieing. I'm the one that has to stay on earth and deal with our lifes moving on without him. I think that put things in perspective for him. I'm starting to get more of an appetite back but the sleeping part still sucks ass. This is the most ironically bitter sweet thing I have ever experienced in my life.
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Hey lonely,
7 weeks 1 day for me. I think we're all searching for something. Nobody really understands the void you have right now. Friends and family try, but unless they've been there, It's tough for them to really get it. That's why we come to a place like this. To find understanding of an event that is so traumatic and life altering. I've only begun to learn about what's next. Life goes on until it's done. So we breathe, we roll up our sleeves and we try to make it through another day. Please try not to hurt yourself. I like having you as a friend here. I got the sleep problem too. It's good that your appetite is coming back. I call that progress.