5 months on

its nearly been 5 months that has passed and i stilll have my moments im going out for the first time on the 19th of july, i really dont want to meet anyone cause im not that person to replace hurt with false love, thats not me, im not that type of a women, i cant scoop down to his level  i wonder if he thinking if i have meet someone yet. or if he does think about me, well all i know is people say how lucky you are that he has devalued you but and left behind alot of stuff to get away, thanks everyone, my tears are less and less i need to now look for and join another  community to get me out and about. instead of staying home feeling sorry for myself,