5 months

Well the 5 month mark is here and I can't stop crying.  I was better on Valentine's day ... why is that???  I know we are supposed to experience "plateaus" but I didn't think it would hit me so hard, especially since I only cried a little on Valentine’s day and that was only 3 days ago.  I miss my Randy so much, my honey, I love you so much and miss you every day, every minute, every hour.

 
 
 
 
 
 

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KipB
KipB

Dawn, quite agreed. This new \"normal\" is anything but!!! Hang tough, kip.
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I know the feeling yesterday was my 6 months. We will have these ups and downs for a long time.
My mother still cries for my sister (20yrs gone 28 yrs old) & my father (17 yrs gone 61 yrs old), but with the help of all our friends on DS, it should become a little easier.
Remember baby step. My thoughts & prayers are with you....BIG HUGE HUG..Grant
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It will come and go for quite a while. No reason for it, just will come when you hear a song, see a magazine he liked, etc. I\'ve been pretty good overall the past month or so but that being said, just had a one minute meltdown when I saw a picture of Lory smiling. They come and they go just like that. Imagine it will be that way for some time. Very sorry about your loss and all I can tell you is that time will help ease the pain. Good friends and relatives can help but that only goes so far. Hope your day goes a little better for you. bruce
Comes fast and hard and goes away.
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So sorry, it just seems like it won\'t end. I guess Valentines Day is universal and the 5-month anniversary is specific to the two of you and that might be why you feel it more. Just keep on going.
Hugs, Gail
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The 5 month mark has a very different meaning then Valentines day did. I have been a little more weepy this week then I was last week for the 4 month anniv. is coming up this Sunday. I think it\'s just the significance of the date. HUGZZZz to you. thinking of you..Shelly
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There doesn\'t seem to be any rhyme nor reason why some days are easier than others and some are just so difficult. I hope tomorrow is better for you. Hugs...Nancy
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Nothing seems to make any sense. Why a special day can be ok and one other day is horrible. I am finding that every month anniversary is very difficult. It marks the distance we have traveled away from them. Hugs, Kathy