5 months

Brayden will be 5 months old in 6 days! Can you believe it? Where did my baby go? Hes absolutely amazing. I didnt know you could love someone sooooo much and still love them more and more everyday. Hes getting so observant. He loves laying on the floor. I lay out a huge blanket and before I know it he'll be off the blanket. He rolls EVERYWHERE! You cant keep track of him he rolls so much. Hes starting to scoot on his belly. He cant figure out how to crawl yet and it makes him VERY VERY angry that he cant go anywhere. LOL. At his last appointment he was almost 20 and almost 28 inches long. Hes such a big boy. I went to the doctor yesterday. I've been having alot of pain in my hips. It hurts to walk and it hurts even more to walk up stair exspecially carry a 20lbs baby. She said she doesnt think its my actual hips because usually when people, like older people, have actual hip pain its more toward there pelvic bone not on the outside. She thinks its my lower back making my hips hurt. She also said she thinks its more muscle pain then bone. So she wants me to go to physical therapy for awhile and see if it helps. She said if it doesnt she'll send me for some x-rays but she really doesnt think its my bones. I also talked to her about how I gained around 40lbs with Brayden and lost all but like 3lbs.....till they put me back on my depression medicine and since then I've gained about 16lbs. She said since my medicine is working so well for me she really hates to change it....so she wants me to see a nutritionist and see if that helps. I go on the 20th to meet with the nutritionist. I'm kind of worried. I've never dieted or anything my whole life. I love food. I was always skinny growing up and I really didnt put on a whole lot of weight till I started getting pregnant and miscarrying. So I never really had a reason to diet. Now that Im extremely overweight and I cant stand it anymore...I have to do something about it. So its probably going to be really hard for me and I'll need lots of support. The worst part is going to be my husband, who is also overweight. If he doesnt diet with me its going to be really hard. I also really need to start exercising, also something I've never really done before. Its hard finding time to do anything exspecially with a 5 month old who requires LOTS of attention on top of working a full time job. I cant find time to clean my house so where am I supposed to find time to exercise? I dont know but I really need to do something. My short term goal is to lose 25lbs...I dont want to start out with to much and overwhelm myself. My long term goal is to lose a total of about 50 or 60lbs. Wish me luck!!!!  Oh one more thing about Brayden. I told you guys he cant use blankets anymore because of his incident where he almost sufficated himself. Well he loves playing with recieving blankets. So when hes playing on the floor and we are watching we'll give him a recieving blanket to play with. Within 2 seconds he'll bring it to his face. I have it in video I'll try to upload it on here. But anyways he'll put the blanket over his face, move his hands away from the blanket, and start kicking his feet and swinging his arms. He'll do this over and over and over again. We'll take the blanket off his face and not even 2 seconds later it will be over his head again. We figured out now that he does this on purpose, its his way of playing, because if he misses his face he'll try again and again till he gets it over his head. Its soooo funny watching him do this. But I tell everyone NEVER to give him a blanket if they are going to walk out of the room because he still hasnt figured out how to get it off his face once he gets it up there. Well I better go. Hugs Monica