5/23/16

Been a little awhile...But nothing has really changed yet.  So haven't missed much.  The condo I offered on I'm very close to closing.  Just trying to set a final closing date, should be either June 3rd or June 6th.  So looking very good.  I have to go back to my dentist to get my new braces and get the new tool that speeds up the process on the 3rd as well, so the 6th would be better for me.  Just a matter of getting the loan company and the lawyers all on the same page, which is becoming harder than I first thought lol...
But it will happen this time, I'm confident about it, this seller has been so much more cooperative it's been great.  June will be very hectic for me though, moving in, doing some rehabbing.  Plus on June 26th to the 30th me and Jenna are going to Ocean City, Maryland, but that will be relaxing after all this condo mumbo jumbo.
I never wrote again about me and Jenna after the last entry.  I was having some issues about some stuff, nothing worth breaking up over though.  We are doing good now, but a few weeks ago I got pretty mad at her, maybe I overreacted, but I don't think I did honestly.  I'll explain the whole thing and you DSer can decide.
So we were at a flea market with her aunt.  We were holding hands and all, and we went into one of the buildings and Jenna lets go of my hand and runs up to her aunt and whispered something that I didn't hear.  So I asked Jenna what she said because she was giggling and I thought it was a joke.  Jenna said oh nothing and waved her hand at me.  I was like that's fine, whatever.
So there was a guy sitting at a table and he sorta looked like Jax from Sons of Anarchy, but he was wearing sunglasses so I don't know if he looked that much like him.  So the guy must have seen her looking and smiling because he said just say it who do I look like, and Jenna said you look like Jax.  I thought the guy was a little too into himself really...lol.
Anyway, walking away Jenna turns to me and like cools herself off, kinda saying the guy was hot, and then walked away from me again.  So at that point I knew what she was whispering earlier, turns out she said there's a cute guy for you.  Meaning for her aunt, because she's looking for a guy I guess.  But I didn't know that at the time, I found out later.  So the rest of the time at the flea market I was really down, not so much mad, but I slowly started getting more mad and the ride home I didn't talk to her at all.
When we got back to the house I told her Mom and aunt why I was mad and they just told me not to get mad at her and it was silly basically.  I just found it to be a really disrespectful thing to do to your boyfriend or girlfriend.  Regardless if she was pointing him out for her aunt, she was still falling all over the guy.  
And I guess because I never do that to her I felt it wasn't fair, I'm always respectful of her when we are together.  And I rarely even check out women anymore when I'm alone.  It just makes me wonder what she says about guys when I'm not with her and she's with her aunt.  
I just don't like it, makes you feel like crap.  My Mom dealt with that for years with my Dad looking at women and I know what the effects can be.  She always hated it.  And Jenna gets mad when I even talk with another girl, which is ridiculous.  
I'm over it now, but I'm just not sure if I could deal with that for the rest of my life, and I doubt she would change.  Her aunts are too much of an influence, they are menanizers if there is such a thing lol.  I think they are very disrespectful to men and are always looking at men and making comments when we are all out together.  It's just what she grew up around and as well as being single most of her life, it might be too hard for her to change now.  
She did say sorry for what its worth and I said sorry too for getting so mad, but I have depression and things like that really get too me, when your girl is looking elsewhere it hurts.  She really ignored me the whole time we were in the building when this guy was there, not something you do when you love someone...
If that's how the relationship is going to be then I'll do the same and I guarantee she'd get mad as hell if I start pointing out cute women to her or her Mom's boyfriend.  There's no point in trying to be respectful when your partner isn't doing the same.  Just the fact that she wouldn't tell me what she said got me mad, because that shows me she knew it wasn't the right thing to say, as well as it's sorta lying because she did say something, not nothing.  I just told her to tell me next time she says that, I might still not like it, but at least I know what she said.    
Thoughts?  Till next time...