4th of July

Well, I'm back from England.  The site-seeing part was incredible and I thoroughly enjoyed it.  However, traveling with my 18 year old son, was... challenging to say the least.  We have always had a close relationship until about 6 months ago (his first girlfriend).  Now he's full of blame, anger, and takes no responsibility for his behaviors.  He's someone I don't recognize.  It's very upsetting and I think I've cried more in the last week than I have in a long time.  His perception of who I am is completely off base and in fact, shocked me what came out of his mouth.  He has an answer for everything and uses bullying tactics to make a point.  It was an eye-opener for me on this trip and has made be very sad for the son that is no longer there.  Everyone mom wants to look at their child in pride of how their child has matured, I'm not so sure at this point I can do that.  This isn't easy for me to write, as I feel like a failure as a mother. I do have to say, while we were gone, we did A LOT of walking every day.  I didn't want to lose the momentum, so I did workout for an hour on the precor burning 650 calories.  I haven't much of an appetite so I'll just eat when I get hungry.  I'm starting back on my eating plan right away and trying to get back to a sense of what's normal.