4th month

Well quite a bit has been going on , my daughter is getting married in a week , I still haven't gotten the surgery done she tells me next week,  but all of her concerned is a paycheck. I still get pop shots thrown at me, I intersepted a face book message but I must say I'm not sure  if I read it in the right way, they sort of invied my other son nickalso to the wedding but later told him that there might be conflict between my son and myself , and the message went on saying that they wished I wasnt going to my daughters wedding , if this is true my gut feeling would be correct , they are spending the night at a hotel to prepare but as for me I'll probably be at the house until Im called to take the to the church. I got yelled at thinking that I have been in touch with my son and his mother , the last time I saw her was when I was working in west cap may when she walked in 7-11th at night telling me that she was getting married to someone she was not in love with ,she was doing it for security reasons , my heart was devestated , I have told her many times that I would be there at her door when  she says I want u in my life . That never came and I don't think it will come because I know that I am a female not a male. It will never come for her now even if she said the words .I still love her and not the one I'm with now , to much pain.