4th entry

so its been a bit since i posted, honestly the un-supportive replies from some have kept me from posting much. lately i been going to a therapist for one on one, which seems to be going ok, but i have so many issues, i might see her twice a week, i dont know though how she could help with my fear of one day being homeless, due to me living with folks since i take care of my dad 12 hours a day and i have no job or income, only having sundays free makes things very hard on me to get things done, much less a job, even if a job said hey, only working on sundays is fine, that would only be 8 hours at most, one days work cant do anything, also we have no other car, my separation left me with no car and my folks briliantly gave their only car to my sister, so now my mother has to depend on others or uber to get to work, walmart run or doctor appointments.

so today i feel like other days, hopeless, horrible, and a waste of space on earth.