i have too much on my plate/life. i need a friend, online and in person. i have been married last 22 yrs to a addict that i did not know was an addict. my marriage has been one big lie. then i lost my mom 8 mos ago, then my 18 yr old moved out. and i live in a town that no one smiles, always complaining about something. i need help in the worst way.  i need someone to offer me a place to share with them to live or help me find a decent good place to live and a good job in a good normal city.  i love big cities.  iam 55 white female.  i am easy to get along with and have put up with too much in my life.  i just want to relax and enjoy with someone special, friends first.  thank you to anyone reading this, although i am not desperate and dont want this to appear like i am.  i am a still strong person, just a little weakened and totolly worn out and tired.  i need the ocean. :)