Smh
Even medically induced sleep was horrible last night, In and out, nightmares and pain. I'm so tired mentally and physically. I'm tired of having the same conversations, the same arguments, going through the same things time after time. I feel like I have been running in a hamster wheel for years and no matter what I say or do the wheel keeps on movin but never actually going anywhere. Sometimes you have to cut your losses and get off the ride especially if its broken and no one wants to call the mechanic because they don't want anyone else to know something isn't right.
One word=exhausted and in less than 2 months everything is going to change. Struggling to deal with the little issues now so come march when the ish hits the fan and babies start being born, school starts, job searching begins idk what I'm going to do.
Smh Goddess help me please.... I'm so tired. I guess it's time to pull out the reserves. It's not like I haven't been here before. Just about every relationship I have been in has come to this point so it's time I look around and figure what in the hell is going on within myself that I keep ending up here. Smh. I was told a few years ago that I needed to try being single for a while but it didn't feel like it was for me. I missed having someone to care for and take care of so I got right in another relationship and that started off interestingly. Now that I think about it there is NOTHING going on now that didn't happen during our first 2 weeks together sooo I can honestly say I accept full responsibility for what is going on now and the way I feel about it.
People often say if only I knew then what I know now but in my case I DID know then exactly what I know now. Smh
WOW ! Ephipany.....although I'm not sure how I feel about it but wow.
One word=exhausted and in less than 2 months everything is going to change. Struggling to deal with the little issues now so come march when the ish hits the fan and babies start being born, school starts, job searching begins idk what I'm going to do.
Smh Goddess help me please.... I'm so tired. I guess it's time to pull out the reserves. It's not like I haven't been here before. Just about every relationship I have been in has come to this point so it's time I look around and figure what in the hell is going on within myself that I keep ending up here. Smh. I was told a few years ago that I needed to try being single for a while but it didn't feel like it was for me. I missed having someone to care for and take care of so I got right in another relationship and that started off interestingly. Now that I think about it there is NOTHING going on now that didn't happen during our first 2 weeks together sooo I can honestly say I accept full responsibility for what is going on now and the way I feel about it.
People often say if only I knew then what I know now but in my case I DID know then exactly what I know now. Smh
WOW ! Ephipany.....although I'm not sure how I feel about it but wow.
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