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So i have generally avoided music for the last 3 years as no matter the song it seems to bring back bad memories and feelings. I switched the radio from the news to music at lunch. There was a line in a song that said i would rather hurt than feel nothing at all. I completely disagree. I guess they haven't felt the kind of hurt that brings on depression the kind of deep dark soul destroying hurt. The hurt that makes you feel like death is a better option than living, the kind of hurt that leaves you just wanting nothing in life other than for it to end. I would much rather feel nothing at all than feel this hurt. The kind of hurt that leaves me reaching for that blade and lighter.